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Everything Bad

  By Jason Wallace Poetry

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  Everything Bad

  Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace Poetry

  When did it all go wrong

  I can barely even breathe

  Even after all this time

  I can sometimes clearly see

  That we were never meant to be

  All along

  Not that it was something I ever believed

  How can one person

  Be someone else's destiny

  How can someone leave

  And leave you so weak

  When you used to be so strong

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  You never seemed to care

  Just who you hurt

  I thought I was first

  The one you needed in your life

  The one to make you smile

  Everything you promised yourself

  Because you couldn't have someone else

  You ran from him to me

  Because he told you

  I was all you would need

  He urged me to take you

  And make a life with you

  And years down the road

  Watching rivers of tears

  As they flowed

  So much I went blind

  And completely lost my mind

  You ran away from here

  Because you were living in fear

  Of never realizing the feelings

  You thought you'd given up

  And he stirred back up

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  He must have lied to you

  Like you lied to me

  Because he still stole you

  As you pretended

  That you tried to be

  Working on us

  I was stupid to trust

  And now I know

  Everything was a show

  And everything was done

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  And everything and everyone

  I thought I could trust

  Though you both hurt me for years

  And lied so many times

  That I never felt I knew

  Either one of you

  I want to move on

  But the law doesn't allow

  Moving on for so long

  If we never said I do

  I might be over you

  I might be stronger now

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  Evermore

  I couldn't make you

  Love me

  Your love had to fade

  I told you

  We could make it all work

  But you just wouldn't wait

  I still...

  Wanted you to stay

  But I guess

  What you felt

  Turned into hate

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  I wouldn't force you

  To do what

  You don't wanna do

  But you convinced me

  So many times

  To give

  More chances to you

  Then when I asked you

  To give me the same

  You said you couldn't

  And had to go away

  I can't help it

  If I scream your name

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  I couldn't make you

  Love me

  If it's not in the cards

  What I had in mind...

  It's too hard

  You turned back

  When we'd made it so far

  So good

  Would it ever do

  Did you believe

  That I loved you

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  I can't make you

  Adore me

  Like you once did

  Despite all you did for me

  You must admit

  You knew it would end

  The wounds couldn't mend

  And you'd find your way out

  I can't say I'll see your face

  All of time could never replace

  The feelings I have

  The love that I know

  We
both have had our doubts

  I guess they showed

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  We may be together

  Never again

  But I will love you

  Evermore

  Could I Have Back What You Stole from Me

  How can you

  Call yourself innocent

  Do you know

  What you've done

  You started out life

  And never finished it

  You've left me wishin

  That I had a gun

   

  You've given me hope

  And taken it away

  All I really wanted

  Doesn't want to stay

   

  Could I have back

  What you stole from me,

  Most of my heart

  And good memories

  You replaced them

  With pain

  And a lot of agony

  If I'm not yet insane

  I soon will be

   

  You've been with me

  Through most of the good times

  And you've caused me

  Most of the bad

  At least you're leavin

  With a lot of years

  Left in me

  And maybe I'll forget

  One day

  About so many

  Of the feelings I've had

  I want to stop needing you

  I don't want to stay mad

   

  Could I have back

  What you stole from me,

  Most of my heart

  And good memories

  You replaced them

  With pain

  And a lot of agony

  If I'm not yet insane

  I soon will be

   

  I thought you'd carry me

  In hard times

  And thank me for good

  How am I to imagine

  A life without you

  I don't know if I could

   

  Could I have back

  What you stole from me,

  Most of my heart

  And good memories

  You replaced them

  With pain

  And a lot of agony

  If I'm not yet insane

  I soon will be

   

  Can you give me

  Anything back

  I’m Not Alright, but I’m Okay

  I’m not alright,

  But I’m okay.

  You’re gonna leave me alone,

  Anyway.

  I don’t know what might have been,

  But I don’t wanna fight,

  So I let you win.

  I don’t have the heart

  To ask you to stay.

  If you’re even half as miserable as me,

  I’ll let you go.

  You’re gonna miss me a lot

  When you see

  That nothing should have gone this way,

  And I want you to know

  I’m not alright,

  But I’m okay.

  You’re gonna leave me alone,

  Anyway.

  There’s nothing more that I can say

  To convince you this is wrong,

  And all along, you’ve been the one

  To lead me astray

  From all I ever knew

  Because everything I wanted was all in you.

  I’m nothing more than a man dying inside

  For all he’s already lost that’s gone.

  I’m not alright,

  But I’m okay.

  You’re gonna leave me alone,

  Anyway.

  I’m losing my mind.

  No. Wait. It’s lost, and it can’t stay,

  So we split.

  I go the other way,

  Though I’ve tried to bring it back with all my might.

  I’m not ok, and I’m not alright.

  I’m anything but anything, at all, tonight.

  I’m a mess with all the best gone out of sight.

  You left me here to figure out this pain,

  Reliving, re-envisioning, all the blame, all the same,

  Memorizing misery and shame,

  Regretting anything and everything and

  Wanting not even my own name.

  I’m apart, heartless, stripped so far,

  In a